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Except they didn’t know the truth. I craved acceptance from a place I was not receiving any. Behind the scenes, my heart was broken.

With gloomier weather and spooky season right around the corner, light some candles and write sad poetry. Try dark academia out for yourself.

I’d sit through conversations with straight family members and friends, and the couple seemed to be a source of common ground to any queer relationship that was brought up—my own included.

I didn’t even know women could masturbate until I watched the first season of Sex Education when I was 16.

But who is John?

That question is probably answerable by Mulaney himself, or the people closest to him—not necessarily the teenagers who idolize him.

“As humans, we generally do like to be stimulated or aroused by our environment. For some, watching a horror movie can hit that sweet spot of being scared but also feeling like you’re in a safe place.”

Maybe it has morphed over the years, but the foundation is all the same—by desperately trying to separate yourself from the girls around you, you are letting it be known you are cooler, edigier, better.

A second reason why I only surrounded myself with boys was because I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to approximate the power they had as men in our patriarchal society.

The recent uptick in brands specializing in self-defense tools marketed towards women is indicative of a larger trend of women gravitating towards more hands-on methods of self-defense.