Living

  • Mix In, Zone Out

    My parents’ faces twisted when I told them what I wanted for my 18th birthday. It wasn’t the typical shrug and mutter- ing of money or books, but a firm plea for a DJ board. It came to me out of sheer boredom, the ever-looming idea that I should pick up a real hobby like an instrument—something tactile. I landed on this mostly because I liked music and I didn’t have to know theoretical concepts to succeed…

  • Transcendence

    I don’t know who I am, and, frankly, I don’t know what I’m doing. I exist in a “gray area,” the in-between of becoming and being, a liminal space of perpetual questioning. Or, to put it less dramatically, I’m approaching post-grad…

  • PTSD

    How do you move when you’re too afraid to blink? How do you scream when you’re too afraid to breathe? Post traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD, is defined by Merriam- Webster as “a psychological reaction occurring after experiencing a highly stressing event…

  • A Period Piece

    From ages 12 to 16, every time someone asked if I got my period yet, I always shrugged and said, “Guess I’m a late bloomer.” Then, I’d waddle away, trying to de-wedgie four pads that I had stacked on top of one another….

  • Purrfect Match

    I’m sitting on the bathroom floor, head resting on my knees, wondering why the LSAT was so hard for me. After a day of not being able to focus and missing “easy” practice questions because my mind convinced myself that this bad day would result in nothing more than failure: no law school, no prospects, and isolation…

  • Dead Stuff

    The first time I saw the shrine my aunt set up for my grandmother’s urn, I walked backward into a wall and started hysterically laughing because shrines and all kinds of “dead stuff”—ashes, bones, crypts, tombs, catacombs, and so forth—absolutely repulse me…